August

Ok, August is no way a good month.
It's a month which is somewhat dangling...
With so many thing that is needed to be done,
with so many dilemmas...
I'm getting really really, lazy nowa*months*...
And i don't know why...
I often find that time is chasing after me,
nagging me to finish all the things that had been piled up since long long ago...
I kept on remind myself that I can't afford to be so lazy,
but i just can't help it.

There's only 3 days left for me to get prepared for my piano exam,
I felt so pressured,
This exam would probably be my last piano exam that I'm going to sit before my SPM
I wanna stop!
Piano is quite torturing, in a way...
not only during the exam season, but the entire year...
And that's very tiring.
(Imagine the very first time I sat for my Grade 1 exam, 6 years back...)
but, there's another thought came and persuaded me to continue.
What if I choose to quit piano now,
then all of my effort of learning piano is kinda wasted.
Yea..I know that I won't be teaching piano when I grow up,
someday,
but, finishing Grade 8 is kinda approval that
I actually had completed all the piano syllabus,
And I'll be officially a qualified pianist!
How awesome!
Though piano is not really my priority,
But, how am I suppose to cope with both SPM and piano...
"It is just an interest" that's what my mum always like to say.
She wants me to focus on SPM...

Teacher told me that I have to get prepared if I want to take up Grade 8
She said that I need to spend at least 2 hours per DAY,
to do researches on the composers, musical terms, and many other more..
the worst is, she warned me that Grade 8 is like taking an extra subjest for my SPM, nearly equivalent to ADD-MATH!
And this is scary...

So, dropping piano is a decision that I wanna make,
And I hope this would be the right decision with no regrets in the future, hopefully

Ok, I don't really know why I'm BLOGGING,
which is quite a RARE thing that I would do, obviously.
Since the last time I blogged,
I realised that many things had changed..
good and bad, joyous and sorrowful,surprising and boring...
Yet, things had happened...
And it's time for me to be in the real world again...

That's all for now.
Timma sleep.
*yawn*
ZZzz...