Thank you, Lord,
for the trials that come my way.
In that way I can grow each day
as I let you lead,
And thank you, Lord,
for the patience those trials bring.
In that process of growing,
I can learn to care.

But it goes against the way
I am to put my human nature down
and let the Spirit take control of all I do.

'Cause when those trials come,
my human nature shouts the thing to do;
and God's soft prompting
can be easily ignored.

I thank you, Lord,
with each trial I feel inside,
that you're there to help,
lead and guide me away from wrong.
'Cause you promised, Lord,
that with every testing,
that your way of escaping is easier to bear.

But it goes against the way
I am to put my human nature down
and let the Spirit take control of all I do.

'Cause when those trials come,
my human nature shouts the thing to do;
and God's soft prompting
can be easily ignored.

I thank you, Lord,
for the victory that growing brings.
In surrender of everything
life is so worth while.
And I thank you, Lord,
that when everything's put in place,
out in front I can see your face,
and it's there you belong.
******
Grandma,
You stays in my heart forever and always.

Today,
I woke up at 9.
(Actually, I woke up at 8
then I don't feel like going out of my room
so, I went to sleep again for another hour...)
***
Had my lunch in one of the Wangsa Maju hawker stall.
Next, to the National Library,
I intended to borrow some books,
but end up FB-ing,
since internet services are provided FREE for public.
(It's a good thing, coz I can't fb at home)
***
And around 4,
I went to Wangsa Walk Mall, alone :(
I realised that it had been ages since I stepped in POPULAR,
and felt that my membership card is a bit wasted.
So, I went in.
(if you ever see me in WWM,
I'll always go to POPULAR,
coz I've got nowhere else to go)

There's only two weeks to go to my final's,
and I haven't even do my revision yet.
Then, I decided to buy some reference books,
I know this is kinda last minute, but at least I put in a lil effort on buying books. :)
I just hope that I can use my PMR holidays to study, study and study.
I'm a person who will easily get distracted.
So, please take away all distractions!
I just pray that I'll manage my time well,
know what's my priorities,
be more organised.

That's all for now.
:)

You won't know how glad am I.
Trust me,
YOU WON'T!

Thx :D

3rd of October is

Though I'm not exactly sure what is it,
Somehow, it sounded grand.
Let's celebrate!
:)

Here comes October!

Every Sunday, after my afternoon nap,the moment I wake up,
I’ll start realizing that there are ample of things for me to do.
School exams, school activities, St. John stuff, assignments, money, etc.
That’s why, to be honest, I dislike Sunday afternoons.

Sometimes I really hate to go to school, but sometimes I really love school.
I’m tired, not physically, but mentally.
I’ve got many things to settle, which I always postpone, because I hate to face consequences.
I’m irresponsible, I know.
I hate to see teachers, I hate to talk to the ex-committee in school.
I hate it when I see all the documents accumulated, with so many debts and accounts unsolved.
But still, I need to do.

I want to get my money back! I’d asked the teacher a few times, and she always ignores my request and start talking about other stuff. I dislike her, she is irresponsible. She always give me the same answer: the money is not with her, she can do nothing. Hello, you are a teacher, you know. How can you say such thing? Unfortunately, she is now undergoing her maternity, so no choice, I have to delay the issue.

I want holidays. I don’t want next year to come, because 2011 shall be my nightmare. I can’t imagine how life will be next year. I want this year to go as slow as possible, really, I’m fearful.
I’m struggling with many dilemmas, and I’m at wits end trying to figure out how to confront all my problem, still, no solutions yet.
I gave up my pianos, and accounts. I took a very courageous step to make that decision. I’m in despair. SPM! I fear that I can’t cope up with all the subjects and piano.
And currently, I'm crazy of guitar. I wanna learn, but I don't think I've got the time.

I love weekends, I look forward to YP, to church. And another reason is, no school.
I often wonder who am I, where’s the real me…I don’t know.
I want to leave all my worries and go out to experince nature and have fun with friends, to do the things I love to do. But, that’s a tough thing to achieve.
And the only thing that I can do is to make the common gesture whenever I’m blank-shrugged.
All I have to do now, is to pray and to seek the Scriptures in order to find comfort.
PS:I don't have to go to school for certain days for the next two weeks, because of PMR. I'm glad that I'm free, for the moment.
Yay! :)

Rat Dissection

Oh yes!
I'd dissected a rat yesterday.
It was disgusting.
I felt the rat's pain.
The very moment we dissect the inner layer, it actually, woke up.
I was shocked. Very shocked.
The worst part was, one group, mostly guys,
relentlessly dug all the organs out and made fun of people,
eg: throwing the tails, hands and feet.
And,
From the time we nailed it,
to the time we saw each and every organs that were in it,
it was- Oh, yucks!
I saw the heart was still moving,
until the time when teacher asked us to throw it away.
The word: Just kill it.
Was painful...
One guy, mercilessly, used the blade and poked its heart.
...
...
It was dead.
...
...
Although I dislike rats,
it was certainly a creepy experience,
which I would never ever forget.

That's all for now.
:)

Add- Maths Is...

SICKENING!!!


recently...
I found out that Add-Maths is way torturing,
or is it always so,
just that I didn't realised that?
Slow me!
I'd always thought Physics and BM are the only subjects which are killing me,
and now...
My poor Add-Maths.
Boo...